I Took Responsibility

I’ve gained 20 pounds!!! I can’t fit into my pants; I won’t buy a bigger size. I’ve been insane for the last year around my weight. My ego said, “you watch what you eat al the time, live a little”, you don’t want to be so restricted with your diet, that food is not that many calories, your not going to gain much weight, don’t get on the scale, you only live once, wear your stretchy pants, you still look good for your age, it only matters that your happy. If you don’t keep track of what your putting into your mouth, it doesn’t count”. Insane--right? Yes, the ego is insane, and I was insane for listening.  I got completely honest with myself. (The ego doesn’t like honesty) I created the weight gain, I chose to listen to my ego and be unconscious. I can do whatever I choose to do, and I can choose a new thought. Changing my mind is the only thing I can change.  I chose to be excited about my good food choices, and being honest about how much I eating. I feel free to have the ego’s chit chat in my head silenced by my honest voice.  I'm eating my three meals a day, four hours between breakfast and lunch and five hours from lunch to dinner. I’m enjoying weighing and measuring my food because I know by doing so I will release the weight easily.  The ego wants to say no. Don’t do that weighing your food thing--it’s too much work. Everything is work--it’s all how I chose to look at it. Right? Its all just a change of the mind, its that simple!